fecund frustration

Im going to be honest, I'm feeling frustrated by painting right now. I know that frustration fosters fecundity but I just feel incapable of making even one interesting/meaningful mark. Part of it is due to the fact that I didn't size the canvas enough and so the oil paint just started bleeding all over the place and didn't want to spread.

as a cure for all this or at least a remedy i have prepared three other smaller canvas and i am going to try to make some drawings. maybe i'm feeling so lost because these two current paintings (with the hands) are almost in a completely different direction than some of my past work. it feels like slightly unfamiliar territory. but moving in different directions is good because it means i'm forcing myself to try some new things.

Im looking at :

Phillip Guston

Per Kirkeby

Luc Tuymans